January 2011
14 posts
Lines.
Lines like contours on her face, she contorts to hide what’s inside. Never been one to express what she feels easily. Incoherent sentences was all she can afford when she tried. So she conceal, to avoid questions, to avoid concerns, to avoid explanations. Conversations over days and through the nights like lines printed on an actor’s script. She reads them over and over again. ...
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Sent Noelle off after we ended training last night. I hope she has alot of fun in Notts! :DD
So, its 2months odd away from IVP. I definitely have alot to improve. I feel the pressure already. As a senior on the team, as someone who has a little more experience than the freshies, I know I have no excuse to screw my game up. I can no longer tell myself im a new handler or a new player because I...
Good Sunday.
Finally went out with this boy after postponing our meetups. Had Aston’s for lunch. The steak wasn’t that good this time round. The girl sitting beside was super gossip-y and annoying. I nearly slapped her. Didnt help that she was talking about people that i actually know. Then we had froyo for dessert at Frolick. Had a good chat and then we walked over to Orchard Central to just...
Unknown.
Ever had the fear of not knowing if you’d ever fit in?
“Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain. Kiss me on the sidewalk, take...”
– Sparks Fly- Taylor Swift
Irreversible.
I cannot pretend like it never happened. And you know what makes it harder? When my mind is left unoccupied, an image of you fills the void. The same scene on replay. I try to push you to the back of my mind, I try not to remember details but when you appear, I break down inside. Goosebumps on my skin, tears in my eyes.
And in the space I return to almost every night, I see you. You have been my...
Go.
Tonight I find myself shaking. No, not from the wind blowing from the fan or the cool night weather. But shaken at the thought of those eyes, that looked at me with evil intentions. Those pair of eyes I trusted and find comfort in are the same pair of eyes i now revolt and repulse against.
Ill never get near it, ever again.
Scarred and shaken. So just go away.
Passerby.
People come and go. They walked into our lives and then leave.
Tonight as I lay on my bed and let my thoughts run, I cant help but think of you. And then of you and another you and you and you and you.
You, you came into my life as an anchor. Made me feel safe, secure and of course, loved. But then you walked out without a reason.
Then there’s you. A constant in my life for quite some...
P.
I wont say I know how you feel because I probably don’t. Because what you went through was something I have never gone through before. But I probably felt a fragment of what you felt, for I have felt hopeless towards (the idea of) love or romance. The feeling that love is just a theme for poems, a storyline for novels and for movies to wrap it’s script around.
I’d offer you a...